Dua Tahun

DUA TAHUN

Postingan sebelumnya adalah peristiwa dua tahun lalu. Yes, ada kelanjutannya kok hehe

Alasan dibalik tulisan ini adalah untuk mengingat perjalanan kami selama dua tahun.

Banyak hal yang sudah kami lewati. Pertengkaran adalah hal yang tidak dapat dihindarkan. Tapi tawa pun tak luput memenuhi hari-hari kami berdua.

Baru ku sadari, dua tahun bukanlah waktu yang singkat. Satu tahun kita bersama, satu tahun dipisahkan oleh jarak. Menunggu bukan hal yang mudah.

Saat itu, pulang kerja adalah hal yang paling berat. Lelah, juga rindu. Sambil menerka kapan bisa bertemu. Sering ku khawatir tak beralasan. Tapi, kamu pun di sana juga berjuang, bukan? Mungkin hanya aku yang terlalu cengeng.

Oh, bertemu dalam mimpi pun adalah hal yang paling ku syukuri, walaupun dengan tangisan.

Namun, mungkin ini yang orang bilang, penantian yang tidak sia-sia.

Masih ga nyangka kamu udah pulang, Mas.

Akhirnya bertemu, pertama kali

Akhirnya bertemu, pertama kali

Di Kokas.

Setelah menempuh jarak yang cukup jauh, kelapa gading-tebet, sampai dalam keadaan yang cukup selamat (yakni tidak lusuh) walau naik ojek. Tapi touch-up itu perlu dan mampirlah aku ke toilet.

Kami langsung ketemu di 21. Dheg.

“Bang gokun ya?” candaan yang sudah dipikirkan dengan matang akhirnya jadi garing, karena kamu ngga dengar. Akhirnya malah tanya, “kamu bawa motor?” hmmmmm baiklah.

Yang aku ingat saat itu, orang bilangnya sih “Kopi Darat”, kamu pakai topi dan jam tangan.

“Seratus” dalam hatiku.

Kamu tanya mau makan apa. Aku jawab “bebas”. Salah ya. Harusnya ngasih rekomendasi. Tapi akhirnya kami makan di Bakmi GM. Makan mie lagi, padahal di kantor, baru nyeduh mie instant haha

Kami lanjut nonton, film minion yang sebenarnya tidak aku suka. Tertawa, ya, walaupun memang sedikit ku paksakan. Tapi sungguh, itu karena aku terlau deg-deg-an.

Belum jam 5 sore, tapi kami sudah jalan pulang. "nge-date macam apa ini", seakan tidak rela untuk berpisah.

Kami berdua naik feeder sampai Stasiun Tebet.

Sempat salah jalan saat di stasiun. Haha sepertinya kami terlalu gugup.

“Kabarin ya fi kalo udah nyampe”, katanya.

Alhamdulillah. Kalau kaya gini berarti lanjut, kan?

How's life?

Hmm…

I don’t know where to start, but it’s a long long story.

I promised myself that I would update this blog even after graduating from high school and now, see, even I’m already graduated from University, been working for 2 years.

So many things happened back then and I was so grateful to be alive until now.

I was majoring Korean language back then, an impulsive choice because I thought I just had to enter that university at that time, yeah the most favorite university.

In my life, there is no happiest moment than my university life. It was a rough journey though; I managed to graduate 3.5 years with highest GPA at my faculty. I gained a lot of experiences there. Academic, organization, friends, part time, at least once I could experience. However, there was so much regret back then, because I cannot maintain time really well. I focused more on study, so I missed many events, seminar, even internship experience. My last semesters were spent by doing part time job. I did enough of it, mostly being a private teacher for Korean kids, teaching English and Indonesian. I also have tried doing translating or interpreting an event, once. I realized now, time wasssssss soooo precious. I couldn’t manage my time doing more productive things. Like, learning what I like (e.g. business or economics thing) or doing what I like, which is no other than selling things (making business or etc.). That is why, when I joint Major Student Union (Hwarang we named it), I chose to be on Danus (Fund Rising) team.

So, talking a little bit about business, since I was at elementary school, I have been selling things. I started selling things for the first time when I was 3^rd grade of elementary school. At that time, I sold snacks to my school friends at a school bus. I bought the snacks from a small shop (warung) near my house. But you know what? I sold it with the same price. Knowing it, my mom took me to the market to buy snacks from big supplier so I could buy with cheaper price and have a few profits. But it didn’t last long, because on the next grade, I sold snack made by my mom. It continued until I entered junior school. At high school, I have ever sold stationary like flashdisk, headphone, watch, etc. I did it with my tablemate. We were going to sell jersey and clothes also, but we were distracted by so many tasks back then. So, we couldn’t continue doing that. What a waste! At university, besides selling things for Danus (because it was obligatory haha), I teamed with two friends to do project. We made our team Daenara (DEsi fioNA saRA), which in Korean language also meant Big Country/States. We did sell popup frame, like you print design and glue it paper by paper, then frame it. We ever did this project for senior graduation merchandise. Besides pop up, we did sell food, which is Tteokpokki (a street Korean snack). We liked it tho, so we sold it haha. We had ever joint bazaar to sell this. It was sold out. We got so many customers, who were satisfied buying our products. It felt more than happy. Yeah, it was a nice moment.

Until now, I always felt that why I could not continue doing business, something which I really like, my passion. I never blamed the major though, because I also got many experiences I never got before. I also studied Korean business, because we have one subject about it. I just feel now, that being an university student, we have much leisure time, why don’t we take that time to do so many productive things as possible. Now, all I need is time.

After graduating from University, oh wait, even before graduation day, I’m already accepted at one of biggest company (in Korea). I was assigned as HR officer and also doing translating or interpreting a little bit. At the first semester of employment, I felt enjoyed. All co-workers there are cooperative enough, unlike my boss. Korean boss also did well to me, and my close friend. Until, I was assigned to Jakarta office (previous was Cilegon). I managed to adapt myself there, with the co-workers, other employees, the bosses. My workload was added much more than before. I did many jobs. At that time, I started to feel stress. I couldn’t find nice friends also. Local boss is shit af, Korean boss is nice though, another Korean (different div) is also a shit af. Anyway many things happened which make me cry, stress, until I fed up and decided to resign from the company. My decision for quitting the company is one I should praise to myself. You did well, Fionna. No one is blaming you.

My regret never stops as everyone says that Human can never be satisfied. I’m still regretting how I can manage time better, to do more productive things. I’m 23 years old now. I felt myself is nothing compared to others outside. Even though I’m running, everyone is much faster than me. I have been wasting much of my time.

I cannot blame anyone. I worked for my family. Sisters are still attending university while dad is entering his retirement day. No one can be a shoulder for this house, except me. I graduated faster than my friends, focused on part time job on my last semester, or even employed before my graduation day is no other than to help my family. Mom said that she want me to get scholarship overseas. I really want to apply for that, who doesn’t? But, I’m thinking of them again.

After all, for 23 years I have been living, I still cannot find my biggest goals, which can make satisfied. I feel that I’m always lacking at anything. My biggest talent is only struggling, if I may say. I just can sell my hardship.

Now, I’m unemployed. Still applying for another company and hoping for better company, job, boss, offering. Although, I cannot feel at ease, because I still want to do what I like which is doing business.

OFFICIALLY GRADUATED

FINALLY I'm GRADUATED!!!! yeayyyy

i have handed the graduation certificate (later i'll upload with the pic ;) ) hehehe i'm just too excited...
May 26th is the announcement of national exam and i'm succesfully passed with good mark... ^^

although 2 things hit me in just 2 days....
i didn't get scholarship (in one of private university here) and the 2nd was i wasn't accepted Invitation of University Acceptance Test.

On June 12nd and 13rd i had University Acceptance Test. i thought i had it well. i've studied har and i'm just waiting for its announcement on July 7th (huh, i'm so curious yet afraid)...
i really wish i get my first choice besides it's not too far i really wanna study in this major. hehehehe

so, how about your study guys? i hope it went well hehe!!! wish me luck :)

 

PS: if i've known the announcement i'll upload the screen captures and also my graduation certificate ;)

Finally!!!

Finally, my national exam was over! Yeah I’m so excited to welcome my super long holiday.

We’re all free by this time until our farewell party on May 23^rd. So, what will I do?

I still don’t know. But I have to be productive. I have to make money. Plus I still have an intensive course for SNMPTN (University Entrance Test) everyday. But I’ve made to-do-list for this long holiday.

And I still have to study hard because this isn’t over yet. I still have to face University Entrance Test. And I hope I can enter good university also get a good result for my national exam.

Is there another 3^rd grader here? Let’s share your experience ^^

Shouldn't be read! confusing words~

ya Allah.. I'm so confused! saya harus berdoa apa? apakah saya harus meminta untuk tidak diloloskan dalam SNMPTN Undangan? jujur, saya sangat bingung.
mama saya minta kepada saya agar saya mendapat beasiswa. tapi beasiswa full itu cuma ada di Universitas Swasta. saya juga tidak ingin sembarangan memilih Universitas Swasta. adalkan ada beasiswa lalu saya ambil. tidak. saya mlihat akreditasinya terlebih dahulu.
tapi mama saya tidak mengerti dan tidak ingin tahu. dia hanya ingin saya kuliah gratis agar tidak merepotkan orang lain. merepotkan orang lain? ya. jujur, papa saya itu tidak punya tabungan sama sekali untuk bekal saya kuliah. untuk masuk SMA dan untuk sekolah adik2 saya beliau tidak punya, apalagi untuk kuliah saya yang harganya berkali-kali lipat lebih mahal.
ya Allah apa saya tidak tahu diri? apa saya terlalu berharap muluk?
saya memilih Universitas Indonesia (UI) yang jelas saya tahu benar kalau itu hanya prestise belaka. tapi impian saya adalah masuk univ tersebut.
mungkin anda sempat berkomen kenapa tidak ikut beasiswa bidik misi? ya saya juga maunya seperti itu. terus? tidak bisa. tidak memenuhi kualifikasi tepatnya.
pintar banget? apalagi. saya tidak sepintar teman2 saya di kelas maupun di sekolah.
mampu? kalau dibilang mampu sih saya sangat merasa tidak. tapi untuk dibilang tidak mampu juga tidak.
dari saya lahir, hum tidak dari orang tua saya menikah mungkin kami hanya memiliki kehidupan yang sederhana. gaji papa saya lebih dari batas untuk ikut bidik misi. tapi gaji itu masih kurang dari umr/batas kesejahteraan suatu keluarga.
terlebih lagi tanggunan papa saya adalah tiga orang anak(termasuk saya) yang kebutuhannya sudah banyak dan berbeda2. bidik misi juga akan menyurvei rumah orang tua saya. maaf, rumah kontrakan kami.
terus apa maslahnya? rumah yang kami tempati merupakan rumah 2lantai alias tingkat. semenjak kami pindah ke Tangerang kami selalu berpindah-pindah tempat tinggal tapi orang tua saya selalu mengusahakan agar pindahnya tidak jauh dan masih di lingkungan itu, kalau bisa masih satu RW.
dan kebetulan rumah yang sekarang kami tempati inilah yang kebetulan pada saat itu kosong. rumah ini tidak besar. hanya sekitar kurang dari tipe 27 tapi tingkat dan di lantai atas hanya ada satu kamar dan tempat untuk mencuci. di lantai bawah ada satu kamar dapur dan ruang tamu.
kami juga memiliki motor yang jelaslah tidak akan masuk kualifikasi untuk bidik misi. komputer dan laptop menjadi pelengkapnya. jadi? yahh saya jelas tidak bisa mengikuti bidik misi.
lalu sekarang saya harus bagaimana?
pernah beberapa bulan yang lalu saya memberitahu mama saya kalau di salah satu univ swasta ada yang mengadakan bewasiswa. tapi mama saya bilang kalau itu masih univ baru dan lebih baik melamar beasiswa di univ 'a' saja. dia sudah lama dan terakreditasi.
ya sudah saya tidak jadi menyiapkan berkas. mama saya juga sangat ingin saya mendapatkan beasiswa tapi di tempat yang 'eklusif' pula. lah? di univ negeri juga ada kan?
berkali2 beliau bilang coba cari dari kampus 'h' kampus 'l' dan dari yayasan seperti 'b' atau 's'. sudah jelaslah beasiswa tersebut benar2 hanya akan diberikan kepada orang yang pintar dengan nilai rata2 rapot yang tinggi. lah saya? saya tidak seperti itu dibanding teman2 saya.
saya juga takut kalo akhirnya saya diterima di UI kampus yang penuh prestise itu, my parents can't afford it. memang sih ada BOP-berkeadilan. tapi adil menurut siapa dulu? kalau ternyata menurut keluarga kami itu belum adil bagaimana?
kalau ternyata (amit-amit) BOP nya malah dinaikan? ihh, nauzubillah deh ya Allah jangan sampe. dan takut hal2 yang tidak diinginkan terjadi saat saya sedang serius2nya belajar di UI.



bagaimana dengan papa saya? beliau menyerahkan semuanya kepada saya. saya ingin kuliah dimana dan jurusan apa. tapi pesan beliau pilihan univ kedua adalah UNS. karena menurutnya itu akan 'menghemat'.
ya, di Solo ada nenek dan sanak saudara yang lain. jadi, yaaa mungkin mereka bisa membantu. toh sebenarnya mereka juga menginginkan saya kuliah disana.
tapi, lagi2 mama saya bilang, 'jangan merepotkan orang lain lagi.' dan saya makin bingung :(


jujur saya bingung. saya harus bagaimana? hati saya berdoa agar saya diterima SNMPTN Undangan di UI. tapi saya takut kalau mama saya malah berdoa saya tidak diterima di UI.
ya Allah saya takut...

THIS IS IT!

THIS IS IT!!!

Sorry for, again, neglecting my blog -.- *bow
but i'm bringing you happy news.
look at this !!!

this is the capture of the announcement my school made yesterday. My name is on the 3rd of the recommended students to join invitation of university acceptance test (SNMPTN Undangan). There are 24 students from 61 students from Social class that got recommendation and 37 students from science. So I’m happy for being the 3rd of 61 students. :D

Happy? Of course! It’s such bliss for me. I went through my hardest time at 1st and 2nd grade. I collected my best scores. I struggled hard. And I think this is my time.

I’m so grateful. I thanked God and everyone. My friends also got this invitation although there’s one of my friend wasn’t recommended to join the invitation. But I personally support her in any way to reach our dream, to continue studying at UNIVERSITY Of INDONESIA.

I know it isn’t the end yet, I just to have to wait for the selection. It has to be selected and the selection is all around Indonesia for 3rd grade of Senior High. It allows the students to choose two University choices. And we can choose two majors from each university we choose.
Because I’m from social class, I plan to choose,

1.    UNIVESRITY of INDONESIA with State Administration major and Korean Language and Culture major.
2.    UNIVERSITY OF SEBELAS MARET SURAKARTA with State Administration and English Literature.

I also hope for your prayer and support. I really hope for this invitation because the quota of the invitation is 40% of the whole student quota. I just have to wait, pray, pray and pray more. I hope I can get accepted at UNIVERSITY of INDONESIA. Aamiin.